Miller

Maybe all that one can hope for is to end up with right regrets.

Fromm

Maturity is the capacity to endure uncertainty.

Russians

Only Russians can come to a non-russian web resource and start complaining about the fact that nobody speaks Russian there.

Sunburn

The day before yesterday I got a terrible sunburn. We were digging up potatoes when it hit me. Strangely my right hand is what suffered most.
Even A's burnt his back, while he almost never succumbs to it.
My hand hurts, but let us believe it's going to be ok.

18

Testing a camera on a night view of my 18th storey.

Funeral

We had to take arms in sea of troubles and organize a funeral for N. K. I wish my previous notes weren't so useful.
Everyone else in the family was so shocked that they couldn't think straight. That's how lead came to us.
I hope everything was ok and she won't be mad at us. We tried our best. . .
Today someone said men are supposed to leave earlier while women are to live longer. It doesn't always work that way. Death is always a shock and I don't want to make plans who is supposed to leave first. The thought itself terrified me. There're things you just don't wanna talk and even think about.

My health is so-so now, can't get enough sleep. Also I get thrilled every time a phone rings. Guess I started to hate phones. . .

Lots of work getting postponed again >.<

Another death

Yesterday(23th) A.'s grandmother died in sleep. We were raised at 7am with these news.
It was a shock for me, I admit. I even had my blood pressure measured by ambulance team and they told me it was 155/90, quite high for me. They gave me some drugs and told me to drink my regular drugs and consult a doctor. I guess I will do so when I get a chance. This pressure thing started after May happening.
Now I feel a bit better. Though I strongly feel afraid of calls in the morning.

She didn't live 2 more days to celebrate 55 years of marriage. We buried her the day of her anniversary. . .

Moderation and caffeine levels

Moderation and caffeine levels

A moderate intake of caffeine for an adult is about 300 mg a day.

Average caffeine rates:

Instant coffee: 75mg per per 6-ounce cup
Brewed coffee: 80mg-135mg, per 7-ounce cup
Espresso: 100mg per 2 ounces
Brewed tea: 50mg per 6-ounce cup
Energy drinks: 28-87mg per 8-ounce glass
Cola drinks: 8-53 mg per 8-ounce glass
Other soft drinks: 24mg per 8-ounce glass
Chocolate: 5.5-35.5mg per 1.7 ounces

[found this somewhere on yahoo, don't remember where]

Weekend

We planned to have some rest this weekend, but looks like we won't. It's always work.
Work, work, work.
I just want peace and peaceful days.
And hell - now I know what health really means.

Children

My neighbour, a woman of 30-something, is pregnant again. . . And her 1st child just stopped crying the nights, the little girl is about 2 now.
Now it all is going to repeat again.
Besides what are you going to do with 2 children nowadays. It's hard enough to bring one up.

. . .

Feel like playing something post apocalyptic. Can't find my Fallout 3 Las Vegas though. Maybe I'd better install Swan Song instead? Will upgrade my Japanese reading while playing. Or just finish Remember11. . .

Marriage

You are married if every day you worry more about feeding your flock than choosing what to wear to work ^^

Prediction and dentist

Went to a dentist today.
Spent half an hour waiting and then half an hour sonic cleaning my teeth. At first we made an appointment to replace filling on my front teeth, but she was very busy with emergency patients and couldn't concentrate on me. So I had to move my filling appointment to August 31st.
What a shame since I was ready for it. Morally and money-wise.
Cannot really blame her.
As I modified one man's saying 'The best prediction you can make is be 99% sure that a man standing in front of you that you are about to shoot from your gun is going to die'. Anything else is beyond our power of assurance and prediction.

Sleep

Drank coldrex yesterday and feeling a bit better today. Also had a good sleep in a warm and quiet place.
Nothing like sleep to lift your spirits.

Cold

Got a terrible headache. Been suffering from it the whole day. Seems like I got cold.
These colds are getting on my nerves. Maybe it is still the one from April following me. :'(
others also seem to have problems with colds. I saw many people coughing in the streets. Is it some kind of virus maybe?

Hellawork

Finished testing a project. Fine, got a rc. Will do for tomorrow. Lots of work on new project though.
Also I have to go shopping tomorrow morning.

Creativity

Here's an example of Japanese creativity: to cut electricity usage on cooling air inside buildings they invented 'green curtains' which not only prevent direct sunshine from heating rooms, but also produce grocery products. 

Photos below:

Android

It is convenient using android device for text input and blogging. How do you think why lately I write so many short posts?
And swear at XT9?
Too bad the application i am using now doesn't support posting to 2 blogs at a time.

Well well well. Now XT9 insists there is no word "blog". Kinda funny I find it.

Work #2

As tired as I am now I still maintain the ability to think straight. Wonderful isn't it?
Oh yeah sure.
Did my flash work. Should be proud of myself, but I am not really. All the embedding work was done using standard procedures. And yet it works.
Will require some polishing though.
If i am lucky one project will be completed tomorrow.

Work again

Going to get my short sleep - from 4am till 7am.
Working on a project again.
The only thing that still keeps me going is fleeing dream of having some rest.

Head in the clouds

Last few days I have been daydreaming most of the time. Daydreaming as in "having my head preoccupied with minor things and stuck on something that doesn't really matter". So now I have things piled up on me till Wednesday.

Basking in the sun

I just adore my cat when she is lying on the windowsill. Cats basking in the sun are the most jolly and cute cats.

Sunday

Sunday.
Father fancied total cleaning and moving furniture.
As long as it makes him happy I guess. Though now I have to take part in it.

. . .

Lol.
My previous posts' title is awesome.
That's XT9 for you XD
though typing is really faster.

Summer I nights

As much as I love summer I hate street companies roaming the streets at night. Also I hate listening to those punks shouting and grumble and making out near my windows. Why don't you get a room, folks, and do all you wanna do there?
And those drunk and aggressive 'men's that are always ready to cause trouble?
As much as I love summer i hate summer streets at night.

Accidents

Such is the essence of life that matters of grave importance often present themselves as purely accidental.

Weather

This weather is tiring. . . Making me sleepy and apathetic. Also it got almost cold somehow.

. . .

Water that is too pure has no fish

Time eats

Even the strongest alliances and the best relationships eventually fall apart if not nurtured properly. Without proper nourishment body and soul wither too, getting weary, old and failing.

On popularity of certain entertainment genre

I think I know why most people are so interested and obsessed with love, affairs and such things. Why fiction and drama 'with love angle' is so popular.
Basically, our life is just a 'mortal coil', endless struggle for survival in the mud. It has no obvious meaning whatsoever and it is usually dull.
Plain and dull.
It gets almost impossible to bear life as it presents itself often. Endless and meaningless struggle often makes you wanna give up and just. . . Give up. Accept the fact that life f#ckd you and just let it do what it pleases afterwards. At times like that you wouldn't mind dying. Everything's gray and joyless and you just don't care anymore. I know the feeling, it has visited me few times already. At different times, though.
So whenever you let that feeling get to you, you are screwed big time.

Lovey-dovey stuff, romance and affairs provide an escape, a way to chase away that doomsday feeling and occupy your mind with something else than treacherous daily life.
Everyone needs an escape.
So that's why soap drama and romantic comedies are popular nowadays: people need to fight the nagging voice inside that tells them to give up.

Rain

Been walking out in the rain. Again. N-th time in a week. Retrospectively speaking, I came in at a good time. Right before it started pouring rain from a bucket.

Harry Dresden files #13

Today I finished reading book 13 in Harry Dresden series. It has been published recently abd I found it by mere chance. It has been about half a year since I finished reading the series up to book 12 and I completely forgot about it.
Book 13 is called "A Ghost Story" and tells a story of main hero being dead and in spiritual form. . . roamong the streets of Chicago of course.
The plot itself was predictable BECAUSE there's going to be book 14. Meaning ~I'm not really spoilering ~ Dresden is going to get alive again by the end of the book. Bah, who would have guessed. . .
Overal, book is 7/10. Series are kinda getting less interesting. Well, it has been more than 10 years for heroes and the author - no wonder the creativity went down.

random rumblings

Some of this days I keep on feeling that everything around me is just a long horrible dream. Sadly, it's not.
Even if I voice my concern, what would it yield?

It doesn't get easier. No matter what you think.

As my father says, it's bad that things happen to other people. But that pretty much doesn't make bad things happening to you just.

** I have had a headache whole day.