My life as it seems

Lately (almost started to write 'saikin' >.<) my life's been strange.
Hm, is 'strange' a word for it? Or is state of my health adding to the state of my mind?
Nevermind.
Lately my life's reminding me more and more of this:

You get the picture, right?
I wouldn't mind if it was something closer to this (at least):

But not with my luck... Not now...
I fear tomorrow for a reason. Tomorrow as in... today. Eh...
Also I made some plans for my BD.
All interested may visit the support page. It's where it was last time. Or just ask me for password.
At least those who have been anxious about it (you know I'm talking about you ^^)...