Going to sleep

Going to sleep at 4am yet again.
How long has it been since i slept at night?
Slept in oh so many meanings.
My nightmares are back. Now they play slightly different strings of my soul, but they're still there.
Yes, there.

Something good for a change?
We've installed dish washing machine today.
One more reason to rejoice and spent money.

VN

Working on my own vn. Been busy last few days.
Also work fever is still there. . .
And also there's that thing that begins with m. It always occupies my thoughts.
:-(

OHSHC

Today I accidentally found out that there's OHSHC TV drama (Ouran High School Host Club). So naturally I decided to take a peek and watch some... well, what can I say?
Voice actors in anime did AWESOME JOB. Those so-called actors in drama are so pitiful trying to pretend they're acting the part... really, most of them got neither looks, nor talent for acting and yet...
The biggest disappointment is Tamaki: since he's the center of the show he should be able to ACT, but omg, he's so shallow and boring. You don't believe a thing he says.

I made this chart (edited a part of it) to represent new adaptation of OHSHC:

Verdict: directors and cast destroyed what could be a hit.

Just a funny art

This made me laugh, oh yes indeed.
Made very character-like :)

Steins;gate

Finished watching Steins;gate.
What can I say about it?
I like 5pb and nitroplus visual novels. Though this time it's a bit illogical. . . Why? Well, you can't tell that without spoilers. But all that illogical stuff is generously compensated by emotion and tension, so it looks good. I guess in vn itself they showed more and answered more questions.

Story is: a group of three friends (self-proclaimed mad scientist aka Okarin, hacker Daru, cosplay fan Mayuri ) accidentally invent a method to send messages into the past. They begin to experiment with it and achieve unexpected results. . . But just before the first message sent into the past Okarin finds well-known young scientist Makise Kurisu murdered. The most interesting part is, the next day he meets her as nothing had happened. And things start to get really complicated.
Story features time travel, conspiracies, attempts to change world order, traitors and a lot of drama. Death and blood too.

Picture shows all main characters(from left to right): Moeka, Mayuri, Makise Kurisu, Rukako, Suzuha, Ferris, Daru, Okabe Rintarou aka Okarin. Overall impression good. First 4 episodes are kind of slow though, before you get used to nonsense Okarin says and other stuff.

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And now some spoilers.
Some interesting facts: Okarin worked so hard in the end to fool another himself about Makise and blood, but easily changed the past taking out metal upa.
If the conference was cancelled after satellite fell, how did professor get a file? Or in beta timeline Cern gets machine from Okarin?
How did Okarin manage to escape killers all those times to get to machine? He was captured quite a few times.
How Mr. Brown got to be a Fb is a complete mystery. Life of Mr. Brown doesn't seem to change despite appearance and subsequent non-appearance of Suzuha in 1975. But maybe that is the answer to previous question.
How Cern intercepted the message is another dark mystery.
How jelly man paradox was solved is yet another mystery. But oh well. There would be no possible happy ending the other way. . .
And another thing : at first they show us that future rewrites itself when past is changed and then in the end they go for multiple layer change. Change the past to let thing that changed the past happen.

Quote

Be good and if you can't be good, be careful

wearethe99%

Some recent additions to we are the 99 %.
You can find these entries there, but I add them anyways just for example.

Cigarette

Should I be honoured looking sympathetic enough to be asked to buy cigarettes for underage?
When I see 13y.o.'s smoke I feel like getting children is for extreme optimists.

We are the 99% blog

US blog where people share their stories of life and 'un-success': http://wearethe99percent.tumblr.com/

Main idea is simple and true - about 1% of Earth's population owns 99% of valuables and money. So that blog is a place where people from 99% can share what they have experienced and think.
Another look into 'happy' America. Looks like my country to me.

KAT-TUN - DIAMOND

I like this song very much. That's pretty much it.

TRANSLATION (RUS) here

Arabian saying

A close neighbour is better than a distant brother.

Lately

Haven't written here for a long time.
Mainly because everything i have to say is plainly pessimistic.
Also because i have caught cold and not feeling well.
Everyone in my family has cold now and i guess it began with my brother's wife. . .
Heh
Piles of work, lack of sleep and motivation, rare meals, what else a person needs to dive into depression?

Heavy thoughts

Going to sleep at 5am AGAIN.
if I were to tell what's on my mind now, it'd be too gloomy even for me to bear.
Life is constantly giving me reasons for . . . contemplation.
I still don't know whether to like it (life) or hate it.
I still don't know, maybe tomorrow would be my last day.
Oh yeah. We all don't know.
But not every of us has to think about that on a daily basis.

Blasted w***

I guess i should change my attitude towards people with stupid demands. Today i got worked up because of some stupid web site, yet another web site and incoherent clients. I should have known better than that. After all, they don't give a dam' about me.
If i were to die because of their stupid business, they wouldn't bother and never consider themselves guilty in any way. So why the hell i should give a dam' about them at all?
An air of polite attention is the best they should get from me. Impolite if they should act rum.
Yep, that's the way it should be.

My lord often tells me i should believe in good people. Good people in this world eh?
To that i can answer like J. Jerome : that is my opinion in general. I do not deny that there may be honourable exceptions, i truly wish that There're some. But personally i rarely met them.
You may remember that story of his about tow-lines. . .