Miller

Maybe all that one can hope for is to end up with right regrets.

Fromm

Maturity is the capacity to endure uncertainty.

Russians

Only Russians can come to a non-russian web resource and start complaining about the fact that nobody speaks Russian there.

Sunburn

The day before yesterday I got a terrible sunburn. We were digging up potatoes when it hit me. Strangely my right hand is what suffered most.
Even A's burnt his back, while he almost never succumbs to it.
My hand hurts, but let us believe it's going to be ok.

18

Testing a camera on a night view of my 18th storey.

Funeral

We had to take arms in sea of troubles and organize a funeral for N. K. I wish my previous notes weren't so useful.
Everyone else in the family was so shocked that they couldn't think straight. That's how lead came to us.
I hope everything was ok and she won't be mad at us. We tried our best. . .
Today someone said men are supposed to leave earlier while women are to live longer. It doesn't always work that way. Death is always a shock and I don't want to make plans who is supposed to leave first. The thought itself terrified me. There're things you just don't wanna talk and even think about.

My health is so-so now, can't get enough sleep. Also I get thrilled every time a phone rings. Guess I started to hate phones. . .

Lots of work getting postponed again >.<

Another death

Yesterday(23th) A.'s grandmother died in sleep. We were raised at 7am with these news.
It was a shock for me, I admit. I even had my blood pressure measured by ambulance team and they told me it was 155/90, quite high for me. They gave me some drugs and told me to drink my regular drugs and consult a doctor. I guess I will do so when I get a chance. This pressure thing started after May happening.
Now I feel a bit better. Though I strongly feel afraid of calls in the morning.

She didn't live 2 more days to celebrate 55 years of marriage. We buried her the day of her anniversary. . .

Moderation and caffeine levels

Moderation and caffeine levels

A moderate intake of caffeine for an adult is about 300 mg a day.

Average caffeine rates:

Instant coffee: 75mg per per 6-ounce cup
Brewed coffee: 80mg-135mg, per 7-ounce cup
Espresso: 100mg per 2 ounces
Brewed tea: 50mg per 6-ounce cup
Energy drinks: 28-87mg per 8-ounce glass
Cola drinks: 8-53 mg per 8-ounce glass
Other soft drinks: 24mg per 8-ounce glass
Chocolate: 5.5-35.5mg per 1.7 ounces

[found this somewhere on yahoo, don't remember where]

Weekend

We planned to have some rest this weekend, but looks like we won't. It's always work.
Work, work, work.
I just want peace and peaceful days.
And hell - now I know what health really means.

Children

My neighbour, a woman of 30-something, is pregnant again. . . And her 1st child just stopped crying the nights, the little girl is about 2 now.
Now it all is going to repeat again.
Besides what are you going to do with 2 children nowadays. It's hard enough to bring one up.

. . .

Feel like playing something post apocalyptic. Can't find my Fallout 3 Las Vegas though. Maybe I'd better install Swan Song instead? Will upgrade my Japanese reading while playing. Or just finish Remember11. . .

Marriage

You are married if every day you worry more about feeding your flock than choosing what to wear to work ^^

Prediction and dentist

Went to a dentist today.
Spent half an hour waiting and then half an hour sonic cleaning my teeth. At first we made an appointment to replace filling on my front teeth, but she was very busy with emergency patients and couldn't concentrate on me. So I had to move my filling appointment to August 31st.
What a shame since I was ready for it. Morally and money-wise.
Cannot really blame her.
As I modified one man's saying 'The best prediction you can make is be 99% sure that a man standing in front of you that you are about to shoot from your gun is going to die'. Anything else is beyond our power of assurance and prediction.

Sleep

Drank coldrex yesterday and feeling a bit better today. Also had a good sleep in a warm and quiet place.
Nothing like sleep to lift your spirits.